Tag: newyear

Reflection on 2024: A Journey Through Mental Health and Gratitude

Boom… boom… boom…

The muffled sound of fireworks filters into my room. I toss and turn, unable to find sleep despite the weight of exhaustion pressing on my body. My mind, however, is restless, wandering across the landscapes of the past, the present, and the uncertain future.

Happy New Year!

Messages pour in from friends, confidants, and even a “lover,” filling my inbox with well-wishes.

Ah, yes—another year has begun. It’s officially 2025, though to me, it feels no different from any other night.

As I reflect on 2024, I’m struck by a sobering realization: I haven’t been okay. Outwardly, I appeared composed, but internally, I was anything but.

For over two years, I’ve been operating in survival mode. Sleep eluded me. Productivity felt like a distant memory. I procrastinated, my emotions swung erratically, and my weight surged. I stopped caring, stopped searching for solutions, and succumbed to impulsive spending.

I was adrift, lost in turbulent waters, not even attempting to reach for a lifeline. And worse, I began entertaining thoughts that frightened me—thoughts of welcoming an untimely end.

The Turning Point: Acknowledging Mental Health

As 2025 begins, I’m forced to confront a stark truth: my mental health is not okay.

This realization terrifies me. While others set ambitious New Year’s resolutions, I’m struggling to envision anything beyond tomorrow. Next week, next month, or the year ahead? I haven’t dared to look that far.

But there’s power in acknowledgment. By admitting I need help, I’ve taken the first step toward healing.

Finding Gratitude Amid the Struggle

Even in my darkest moments, I’ve found fragments of gratitude. I’m thankful for the blessings I’ve received, the experiences I’ve lived, and the people who’ve stood by me.

Each morning, I remind myself of these gifts. It’s a small but meaningful practice, helping me shift my perspective and rediscover the will to embrace life once more.

Moving Forward: A New Year, A New Hope

As I reflect on 2024, I recognize the importance of self-care, mental health, and finding purpose. My journey is far from over, but I’m learning to mend what is broken and nurture hope for the future.

If you’re reading this and feeling similarly, know that you’re not alone. Let’s take this New Year as an opportunity—not for perfection, but for progress. Together, we can embrace life’s challenges and celebrate its blessings, one day at a time.

STF – January 2025

New Resolution-Ku

Happy new year 2018! Well, this post is kind a too late but, it is still January tho. And I know, most of you haven’t thought about your new resolution for this year.

Or have you?

Ada seloroh yang selalu diucapkan tentang resolusi baru ini. “Resolusi gue tahun ini adalah sama dengan resolusi gw tahun lalu”. Haha, saya pun pernah berseloroh seperti itu. Bukan berarti kami (baca: saya) tidak mencapai apapun ya dengan mengulang resolusi. :p Hanya saja, resolusi awal tahun itu selalu berubah di tengah tahun, dan akhirnya saat akhir tahun mewujudkan yang lain.

Mr. Richard Bronson said you need to write down your new year resolution. Find anything. Your journal, blog, note, anything that you can see it – read it over and over, so you remember it until you breathe and live your year thinking about your resolution.  Last sentence is not from Mr. Richard Bronson, that’s just me being exaggerate. *peace

So, this year, I wrote down my resolution in my private journal. Ya, menulis resolusi itu penting. But you still need find the best ones you want to achieve this year. Saya orang yang BM alias Banyak Mau, jadi buat saya, memilih fokus resolusi itu PR paling utama. Keep it simple but clear. So steps to get your resolutions achieved is clear. Itu nasihat saya kepada diri sendiri.

Nah, ada kabar baik turun dari ‘langit’ yang membantu saya bisa meraih satu dari resolusi itu. God is Good.

Sekarang saya sudah menulis resolusi saya, sisanya, saya butuh komitmen dan niat untuk menjalaninya. Satu PR lain yang harus jadi resolusi sebenarnya. Komitmen. Haha tahun depan saja yah :p