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on Bended Knee..

I walk into your house slowly

I know I must do it alone

I pray my heart don’t weary

I pray you wouldn’t hate me

 

I get down on my knee

Sit down and calm my heart

I know this time will be different than before

I pray for my weary heart

 

I come to you who sit in front of me

I tell you about my heart

I tell you about my loneliness

I tell you my weary heart

 

You’re keep silent

you’re listening attentively

and then… you open your eyes

lift your head, and said…

 

I see you.

I forgive you

I will still love you

Don’t hate yourself because you have heart

 

17:30 – 230318

We are OR

When there is A and B, it supposed to be AB

When there is A and B, it supposed to be right together

When A is no B, and B is no A, but AB is just right

But there are no U and I

 

When there is A or B, it was not supposed to be AB

When A is no B, and B is no A, but AB is just right

When A is only A, or B is only B, AB is not right

But there is U and there is I

 

When there is A and B, it can be AB

When there is A only, or B only, it could be AB

But that doesn’t mean there is U and I

Because there will never be ‘S’ in U and I

 

Fools,  said the logic. “You do not know,

emotions without me like a cancer grows

Hear my words that I might teach you

Take my arms that I might reach you”

 

 

But the logic like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the hollow of my heart

 

November 19, 2017 ; 16:00

 

 

 

 

 

Numb…

Finally, I said it. Out loud. The funny thing is, after all the talks, all the heart-to-heart talk, I don’t feel sad. Enough crying, enough all the worry, enough all the hurt feelings, enough to feel insecure, enough trying. Enough of all the tears. What’s left of me is numb, empty. Feeling like there is a hole in there.

I even don’t feel hateful or angry or mad. Funny feeling. Just numb. Like all the feelings, all the care is gone. Tonight. I can’t feel anything. I want to scream, I want to cry my heart all out, I want to be mad. But,… what I feel now is numb. Empty.

After all, we had together, after all the hurt he give me, now he makes my heart go numb. Just like that. Damn you CP!