I walk into your house slowly I know I must do it alone I pray my heart don’t weary I pray you wouldn’t hate me   I get down on my knee Sit down and calm my heart I know this time will be different than before I pray for my weary heart   I come to you who sit in front of me I tell you about my heart I tell you about my loneliness I tell you my weary heart   You’re keep silent you’re listening attentively and then… you open your eyes lift your head, and said…   I see you. I forgive you I will still love you Don’t hate yourself because you have heart  […]

I don´t expect my love affairs to last for long Never fool myself that my dreams will come true Being used to trouble I anticipate it But all the same I hate it, wouldn´t you? So what happens now? Time and time again I´ve said that I don´t care That I´m immune to gloom, that I´m hard through and through But every time it matters all my words desert me So anyone can hurt me, and they do So what happens now? Call in three months time and I´ll be fine, I know Well maybe not that fine, but I´ll survive anyhow I won´t recall the names and places of each sad occasion But that´s no consolation here and now.[…]

Happy New Year 2017! It’s been years since I wrote on my own blog..hahahaha shame on me.  It’s been too long until i forgot how to begin with. Douh! So, I begin with greetings! ALOHA! (so, what’s next?) *…..blank mind….*  Saya akan mulai dengan bahasa Indonesia, karena tahun ini, adalah waktunya untuk sadar, bahwa saya (ternyata) belum bisa menulis bahasa inggris dengan baik. Hence, menulis bahasa Indonesia dengan baik pun belum juga. Okay, shame on me twice. (Tuh, kan.. entah kenapa jargon dalam bahasa inggris jauh lebih mudah dan lebih awam di banding dengan jargon bahasa indonesia). Awal tahun 2017 saya memutuskan untuk be more serious. Iya, serius.. bener deh. Serius ini! Baiklah, saya urutkan satu-satu. Lihat domain di atas.[…]

  #111296266 / gettyimages.com 27th Oct 2014 Yeayyy Happy Birthday to me! Today I am officially 33 years old. Whew! Thé number is really gives me an ooozzz feeling. Like my prayer last night, 33 is twin number. Twin means double.. number that expect me to do two times better, two times wiser, two times mature, two times responsible, two times effort. They said numbers doesn’t matter. They say being older doesn’t mean you getting better.. Or wiser.  Yes, I agree. Those things doesn’t come when you’re getting older, it earns from life experience and how each person learn from it. But number –in this case is matter of age number– is a reminder that you’re not getting younger.. And[…]

It’s just suck seeing you like this, when he stirred you how to live It’s just suck feeling like this, when it feel i must compete with your boyfriend It’s just suck when i should be supportive while inside i don’t agree It’s just suck when suddenly i am the middle of you It’s just suck when i see myself turned become a bitter woman It’s just suck when i see my life stuck while yours is running It’s just suck when i feel pathetic  with my self and my life It’s just suck when you are okay with all those characters of him It’s just suck when i only can write this poem…. but This is your life, this[…]

Stef… Happy Birthdayy…!” that’s all my friends said when day on that month is on October 27th. Another year has past, and yet another year must face. Yes,  I thanked God with all that I have now.  Not that I was not grateful for all this years. Actually it gave me a moment of reflection. Well, I did it everyday to rewind the day and remember what I have been done for today. But,  I don’t know, this time feel different. Maybe because my age. Ha..ha.. Yeah, facing the world of 3.0 would be ‘make sense’ reason.