Finally, I said it. Out loud. The funny thing is, after all the talks, all the heart-to-heart talk, I don’t feel sad. Enough crying, enough all the worry, enough all the hurt feelings, enough to feel insecure, enough trying. Enough of all the tears. What’s left of me is numb, empty. Feeling like there is a hole in there.

I even don’t feel hateful or angry or mad. Funny feeling. Just numb. Like all the feelings, all the care is gone. Tonight. I can’t feel anything. I want to scream, I want to cry my heart all out, I want to be mad. But,… what I feel now is numb. Empty.

After all, we had together, after all the hurt he give me, now he makes my heart go numb. Just like that. Damn you CP!